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Learn to be lonely

25 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

Learn to be lonely

No one in this world will every truly befriend you

Hide the pain behind the handsome, alluring, seductive mask of an angel

Learn to be lonely

Don’t dare to dream for the moon and stars

The broken shards of dreams before yours will wound your wings

Learn to be lonely

In darkness, every fault is concealed like a mask

In the harshness of day, the mask removed to reveal the true monster

Learn to be lonely

Never let love entangle and ensnare the fragile heart

For one simple gesture will shatter it like that mask

Oh my darling Phantom

I will never be your angel, your desire

No matter how I sing, this melody never reachs a heart

Like you, I must wear a mask

And unlike you, dont have to learn

When I have be lonely within you

Mental Abuse

25 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

Yelling, screaming, berating me for your own sadness, for your own misery

Lost is the innocent child behind battlescars of survival

There is no story written to this tale with a happy ending

Do you derive pleasure or confidence by destorying all that I am?

You want me to be the perfect little flawless doll that fits into Barbie’s clothes

So sorry to disappoint for I am human therefore I can and do err

The physical blows never come, just the mental ones that batter daily at my defenses

Till my battle weary mind can only dwell on two options: sucide or homicde

Either way will end the daily mental barrage, end the daily mental scarring

For twenty one years I have endure this because I allowed you to mute my spirit

But like the phoenix, my spirit has burst forth into the open sky in flame

No more mental wars for me with you

No more degrading me for your sick twisted pleasure (which you deny to yourself and even to me )

The urge to kill to self presevre grows strong

Maybe the insanity plea could work but I will never tell

How you sought your confidence by stealing mine

Like demons of old you sapped my spiritual energy till I had to fight back

For all the love and trust I have given unto by famial decree

You cruelly ripped me apart then deny your creation

At least Frankenstein took responibilty

And like that poor creation, I have only one path out…

Sanctified

23 Jun 2010 2 Comments

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

S olitary am I

A lways alone

N ever loved

C apable of affections

T hough I’m not sure

I f only I knew

F or it’s hard not knowing

I wish I knew how long

E motions last

D rained of life, alone and waiting

Dragon

23 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

Dragon within my soul

Awaken from thy slumber

Become one with my spirit

For thee and I are now joined

Let thy fiery power

Course through these veins

Ask what thy will

For nothing shall I deny thee

Flame consume this mortal heart

Reshape it to thy will

As for the human soul

Destroy it, burn it to cinders

Dragon within my being

You’ve accomplished thy task

No more human, no less dragon

But now one being of flame

Bullrider

23 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

Deep breath, smell the churned up dirt of the arena

Listen to the roar of the crowd and the bulls in their pen

For now its not that buckle but the thrill and adneraline rush that is about to come

Its better then sex this high

Broken bones, spilt blood and maybe a broken heart on her way to Tulsa

Shake the head and walk to the pen

Look the bull in the eye to ascertain that today is your day, not his

Climb the railing and take the seat on the bareback and….

Another deep breath, feel the heart racing in anticapation

Lift the hand and give the nod

Explosion and the next 6.5 seconds is paradise

Before kissing the earth

She Was Only…..

23 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

She was only three when he said goodbye and walked out

Her tears that he said held magic couldn’t bring him back nor make him stay

How could a father sweetly lie to his darling little princess, she wondered

She was only fifteen when he said the cruelest thing and stalked away

Her tears that he said made her more beautiful made him never look back

How could a boyfriend be so false as to deny his involvement

She was only twenty-seven when he waved goodbye and board the school bus

Her tears were of a mother’s joy knowing this one would return by three

How could an angel born of lust and pain heal her heart, she mused

once inside her tiny home, toys picked up as a small infant in her arms in the frame made her smile

And it all started when she was three and learned that sometimes fathers aren’t needed

for a little princess can grow up, make mistakes and still cry for the good in her life

The World Is Never Enough

23 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

The world is never enough

I have learned the art of when to lie or how to hurt

Never learned the art of healing

Its taught me how to conceal and decieve

Yet its not enough for them

The world is not a perfect place

This heart is not enough to take the world

People like me know how to survive admist the choas

The only point in living is to prove them wrong

By learning how to kill through kisses and sensual caresses

Not by tears and scars

The world is not strong enough for the world falls apart

These emotions within stir an ice heart

My love, can’t you see that you are part of the world

The part of the world I must destory and break apart

The world will never be enough for…..

Ever Blue

13 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment

by uscthunderwolf in Poetry

There is a heart crying out in pain and lonliness

Asking why it can become guiltless

Or should it stay ever blue

Come oh heart, no more pain and lonliness

All good hearts are guiltless

Stay ever blue

For blue is the color of the sky after the gloomy rain has passed

Blue is the color of the bright robin’s egg

Blue is the color of ocean that is boundless like my love

Blue is the color of your eyes whether happy or sad

Always remember that blue isn’t always lonliness and sadness